sunrise--no, when I say "stirred up" I don't mean that I miss the "old days" though that may be part of it. I mean that I want to be with her, and want her to be everything she can't be to me. It's transference. Seeing her stirs up all of those feelings of wanting her. Maybe it's preverbal because I can't describe it well.

I've done a lot of grieving for having to give up the relationship I wished I could have with her. Grieving about giving up therapy with her is not such of an issue because I realize that she can't help me anymore.

I'm just going to play it by ear and see how I feel when I see her. I'm thinking that my feelings will be my next topic for therapy, which is my main issue anyway.