I dunno, I just felt like sharing something with you all. Now I know I still need a lot of help developing a better self esteem and believing in myself but at this point in time I'm starting to see more of myself shining through and not who i think people expect me to be. At an early age I was told in front of my mother by my pre-school teacher that I would never make it to high school or much less graduate from one. basically it's been that way for me ever since i remember. no one believed in me so why should i believe in myself? right? i dunno though, something changed in my these last few years. i just figured, i'm not afraid of failing anymore so why not try and go out there and just do what i want and try to accomplish things no one thinks i can? and surprisingly enough, things started going well for me. i quit worrying about being a failure and worried more about being myself. of course i don't want to mess up or make mistakes, i hate messing up, but there's more to life than your shortcomings. you may not realize it now but regardless of what you or anyone else thinks, you are a blessing to the people that know you. I've spent most of my life feeling like i shouldn't try anymore but now that i have started trying, and knowing i have the friends to back me up with my family. i'm almost fearless (almost being the operative term lol). sorry if i've been ranting but i just felt like you all helped me here before and i just wanted to try and help out whatever way i can. so please, don't stop believing in yourself. because at the end of the day, no one else will but yourself and that's what matters.