Hi Rainbow,

I didn't attach right away -- though when i did, it was strong. When i read the phrase "real person" in your thread, i thought you might have meant viewing t as a regular human being, not somebody who seems all powerful or wise, or a mother figure. If that's what you meant, I'm still learning to see my t as a real person rather than idealized.

I think it's good that you're starting to feel attached to the process of t more than the t herself. . .although your feelings for her will probably increase as you get to know her. Maybe it won't be like with your last t though. Maybe the attachment will be in proportion.