2004 to 2010 my husband was cheating on me with me son tutor that worked with him whom which he referred.this woman smile in my face plus wrote a book which i brought and had given this woman a dozen of rose.in 2009 my husband went to Washington DC and he forgot to log off his computer which he never does at all.i found out that the have had sex made love like two married couples that are truly in love..now that his health is getting poor were as he has kidney disease,he inform me that they don't communicate anymore but they do.he promise. also when they want to dc he slept with another co-worker how i know he stated that a man roded with them.i confronted that man and he stated that i want that's what he was told.my son is 10 yrs old my family say what ever goes on in your house do what ever it takes to keep your family together no matter what.my husband haven't touch me in 6mos.he says that his health has him feeling like this but kidney disease wasn't told to him until march2010.he says that he don't have no desires.but the weekend i am at work he drops my son off at my parents and pick him up before he pick me up at 11pm.please help me i just want to be happy if that's anyway possible.i have no friends because he thinks there are going to introduce me to another man.2009 we start sleeping different beds,I still feel in my heart he has feeling for this woman.i have no friends.i found this site and have read some of this things prople have wrote,I WONDER will i ever be strong again or will i be a proisoner in my on home an stay mad as hell all the time.