Elana - yes, I suffer from the negative criticism thing as well. My father has been very disappointed that I haven't done more with my life and that I have given up really great jobs to follow my husband. Also, when I worked for a public school, my contract was not renewed. I never got a reason from the district as to why they did not want me back. My test scores improved both years I worked there. I think that's where the fear of interviews comes from. I wish I could care less what others think of me.

Rohag - I know part of it is aging...I'm not 20 anymore. I don't have as much energy, but I should still be capable of holding down a full time job. I actually think I'm capable of not only holding a full time job, but excelling at it. I'm just a little worried about being stuck in an office for so long...I'm out of the habit.

Semiblonde - thanks for the support. I'm not afraid of the interview for rational reasons. I can anticipate the questions and if I'm not depressed, I'll do just fine. I'm actually quite personable and present myself well in most social/work situations. The terror comes from depression. I used to deal with the depression much better, but I find myself wanting to just curl into a ball and hide from the world now.