I am having a very hard time right now. Like a switch went off some time yesterday afternoon and the stress in my body has reached maximum levels. I have been feeling it coming. I found myself working so hard on Monday that I was absolutely physically and mentally exhausted, yet I pushed myself to do even more...gotta do this, do that, change this, change that, rearrange, clean, organize. Oh ya, and I have to finish my final disability appeal thingy online. And I'm furious with my son's school and the entire school district right now. My stomach is in terrible knots and I feel sick. And I'm completely disconnected. I cannot make myself talk to my husband, I had to MAKE myself post this. Like jumping into a cold pool...just hurry up and do it. But I don't even know that I have a particular question or thing I want anyone to say to me. I just feel very separate from everyone, even you guys. I am so full of anxiety that its sort of a physical pain. Like someone is scratching my skin constantly with a cheese grater. I really have no idea what I am even saying.