WePow:

This is such good news for you! What a lot of work you have been doing. It is nice you have another week to process. I am grateful for your sharing.

For me, I had to stop and accept that I was split. Then as all the parts came into view I had to learn to see them all together and communicate and even accept them. Then as the unfolding of the memories and issues have been addressed there has been a definate sense of loss and unchartered territory and even lately a definate sense of heightened emotional awareness and discoverying what is an acceptable level for me. My therapist, AACOA, PC, the God of my understanding, my current family, my new friends and even work are shaping my acceptance of me in the present. At times it is a scary venture into the unknown and other times it is an exciting prospect. I think all being in the boat is a wonderful concept moving along on this river of life. I may borrow it. I love sailing!

My therapist said the same thing WePow. I will always kind of have them with me but I must say I never thought of all the internal parts as all being in an addictive behaviour before. For me it was far more than addictive, it was life sustaining. Addictive seems somewhat out of proportion to what was going on in our life at the time of being raised up. It seems that if it were pure addiction it would be a simpler thing, phwew. I believe I asked my therapist at one time if I was just being addictive. His kind and compassionate eyes seemed to show me: "No, 'dear child', is it ever okay to call a little one who does not have a choice, as being addicted?. There may be a word however.

WePowe, I'm pretty sure my boat is a sail boat with sails full out and on deck there are lots of art supplies and although the weather is unpredictable, it is a more peaceful and a safer sail than in previous years. It may be while before I can say I am fully integrated as my alters are let's say a little bit more firmly established, lol. But, for you, I am so glad you were able to go through this earlier than later.

There is so much more life for you to live ahead and propects for happiness and peace. Keep posting as you are able.

Cheerio,
Hunny