((((((((( Hunny ))))))))))) Thank you. It is odd because after T said that about the addiction, I emotionally backed away. I understand what he is saying, but like you, I did not see it as an addiction - but as just what was. I never had a choice over dissociating or not. It wasn't like I picked it up due to peer pressure or that I wanted to escape and said "Oh, I will just be Mick today!"

IDK ... Maybe I'm just hyper sensitive because I am hurting deeply inside right now and subconsciously "blame" T for the alters not being with me. Another part of me wants to just hide my true self from T from now on and never again tell / show anyone on earth what I am thinking or feeling. I am not sure where all this is coming from - and oddly, I feel like for the first time since starting therapy I am doing this alone - even though I logically know I am not. If that makes any sense. I am very glad I have you all here on PC because you guys are the only ones who DO get it.