(((((((belle)))))))

i'm so sorry for what you're going through. he really treated you horribly by having her stay over in your house. i think these sorts of things do take much time to heal from and do hit us in waves. i also wouldn't try to push it all away. it sounds like you need to let the feelings out. there is probably a balance there between feeling the feelings and not getting overwhelmed or stuck in them. maybe your T can help you figure that one out and then you can tell the rest of us how to do it. take care sweet belle.