Thanks so much for all of your replies. It really has helped me feel less like a horrible, overly needy girlfriend.

I have discussed, both with my boyfriend and my therapist, that it would be best when I'm upset to simply get off the phone. The reason I didn't this time was because it felt so different than other times. I used to get really angry and irritated, and I could tell I was picking needless fights simply to vent frustration. This time, I was just lonely and wanted to be near someone. But I agree, getting off the phone would still have been best for our relationship.

I like Typo's suggestion of watching a movie, and I will probably start doing that. Last night, I actually flipped through a large picture book of baby animals, and, while it didn't make me feel less lonely, it did at least raise my mood a little.

I have been coming to PC a lot more recently to try and deal with the loneliness. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow and my second pdoc appointment on Friday. I will talk to them both about this new issue.

My boyfriend and I are back to normal, yet I'm still not sure a solution has been reached for what to do in the future. Basically, I will just have to find other outlets at night (like the movie and picture book). It's hard, cause I don't have many friends. Even less that know about my depression.

Thanks again for all your help! You've all made me feel much better on several different levels.

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Ro