I really don't know where to start or post. I am feeling so lost right now. There is so much that I want to say, but I am afraid that no one will respond to what I have to say as if I am invisible. I've experienced that my whole life, but now it's catching up to me. It's so frustrating. I don't know what it is that I am doing wrong. It's very overwhelming. I want to do so many things to keep myself busy while I am not working like yoga, learn a new language, continue writing short stories, photography, art...everything that I love so much. Read books, fill my head with knowledge. But then I'd have to do something that feels like it takes me forever to do, like just cleaning the kitchen or the house period. I get frustrated because I feel like I am doing it all by myself and that there's no time left for me to enjoy anything.

There are so many things that make my life feel alive and beautiful, but then soon after that, that feeling has completely left me.

Sorry about the ranting, but I just want to be able to throw this out in the universe. . .