((((Wepow))))

Thank you for sharing that. I have often been so afraid of coming together. The fact of living alone within is so foreign because for so long it is all we had------one another. Being multiple has been an integral part of who I am. Though we have not blended as of yet, I think it is what we are working on. I know the ones that have stepped back into the place that they are suppose to be, the silence that came was almost deafening and I felt a great loss.

The truth is, you really have not lost anyone of them. Now they are all within you and helping you to be who you are. You never lose anyone, in fact now, you have all of you together working together as one. Knowing that each one of them is that part of yourself that never was allowed to be but now you are. The thought of that scares me yet I know that they are me and I finally have the chance for the first time to be one with them.

The being mad at t would make sense and being afraid to go also makes sense. I sometimes am afraid to go or do not want to go. Facing these things is so hard and so much work. But when you do not want to go is when you need to be there the most. For so long all we knew was what was within and it was those within that got us through each day. No matter how caotic it may have been it was a known. Something we could count on.

They are our life. They got us through everything so we were alive. But it is you that has all that strength within yourself. Your t is so right that now they are closest to you and what they held for so long will never leave you. You have become the totallity of yourself. I know for me the thought of the caos being gone scares me. It has just always been this way. I always thought everyone was like me, here today then here again, or maybe we never left.

Those within gave me life when I otherwise would not have been. They were my world, my family. They supported me when no one else was around. When things got too much they stepped up and they gave me life. Well, they are still giving you life wepow. All of you, the totallity of who you are. I think you are right that someone who does not have DID does not fully get what is taking place or just how everyone is so important. But I know that they do try. they see the struggles we have and they watch the strength that we fight with when we feel we cannot go any longer.

Everyone is more than one in some degree just not totally separate. Many times they also feel their inner self step out and they do things that makes them feel safe or comfortable. They just did not compartmentalize everything in such a distinct way. They did not have to rely on others within to get them to the next day. But we did and do. That was a courageous thing we did by dividing and allowing ourselves to survive what otherwise would not have been survivable.

You have inspired and help me to understand so much. What is taking place now within myself with the others is so terrifying yet, I know that I am doing just what I am suppose to do. And it is because of your willingness to open up and share your journey. Mick, the Little One, and all within you will forever be here with us. They have given you and us much encouragement as we watched them grow and share.

I think you are a ball of your altars, and a ball that has meaning and importance. You are you. And now, you can make decisions through those parts of you that still are helping you within yourself. Each time you look up at those planes you will know that Little One is with you. Each time you are able to get angry, you will know that Mick is right there giving you that strength and courage to allow yourself to be angry and stand up for you.

I do hear you when you said that you feel like for the first time you are actually doing this alone now. This way of life being an addiction is not something I think about. When it is all you have ever known, it cannot be helped but to be an addiction of sorts, not sure that is what I would call it. But it was the way it was. They were my reality and my life savers, and still are at times. If it was not for each one of you, you would not have been able to pull through. Right now for me, those within pull me through each day when I think I cannot go another mile, they are there still walking.

Being able to accept yourself, all of you, and for the first time together stand as one I can only imagine. But, you will always have them right there, right beside you, and your will never be alone again. I am not sure what is happening within myself but I know that where I am is right where I am suppose to be right now. And as painful and alone as that feels, somewhere in it all I am finding a strength I never knew existed. A strength I can draw on. It has been there all along, I just did not know it.

Wepow, thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. Know that you are right where you need to be. If you were not ready this would not have taken place. And reach within yourself for they are all right there just closer that is all. We love you my friend. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. To all of you. Always.

dps