Thanks. I feel actually better today... not as lazy at least.

I am bit afraid of any meds... because I feel that my crappiness is somehow "natural" and I feel afraid of messing up with it. At most of the time, I can still eventually get over it... maybe it takes longer, but I do my task on time.

I live in Europe, so all insurance companies have the same coverage. It's a terrible co-pay, but I still would have to use money out of my pocket... No, I don't qualify to any social-welfare programs, since I have occasional jobs and own a house. And I am really afraid of having a medical record in mental health... I feel it could hinder my possible career.