So far, I have had three sessions with my first therapist. I don't have anything to compare to, so I can't tell if I am being oversensitive or if she is just not a very good T.

Every time I see her, she keeps bringing up (with incredulity) how I have lived in this town for 2 years and I "still have no friends". It is frustrating for me sometimes because it is not why I am seeing her. In our first session, we talked about why I was there: anxiety, social phobia, depression and SI.

I live in a very small town (2500 people). Statistically, there are very few people in my age bracket and I am not interested in drinking, parties or sports. That doesn't leave me with a lot of opportunities to meet people here. Normally I'd meet people at work, but I have been unable to find a job here.

Anyways.

Last time I saw her, she predictably began discussing how few friends I have. I went over all the information I have posted here. Lack of common interests, few options, lack of opportunity, etc. She always agrees with me that those are all serious impediments to meeting people my age.

Then she says "So, we just need to think of a way for you to meet people in your age bracket." I responded, semi-jokingly "Well, when you figure it out, let me know!"

Her response was to laugh loudly and say "Well, it's not MY problem!"

I just thought that was really rude and insensitive. First of all, I'm not the one who keeps bringing it up. Second of all, I have been living here for 2 years. She has been living here for over 15 years. She'd know where the local youth hangs out better than I do. And lastly, while I know that she does not really give a crap about my life, couldn't she at least pretend to while I'm there?

I should have clued in during our first visit when she was talking about SI and I welled up a bit. She laughed and pointed at my face and said "Do I see a little tear?"

WTF. I was trying to hard to open up and that comment really jolted me out of the moment. Now every time I see her, I try really hard to maintain control so that she won't laugh at me.

I have to see her again tomorrow for our fourth visit. Last time she also told me that she is leaving in two months and I will have to start all over with someone new anyways. I considered using her as practice, but I might just tell her to introduce me to one of the other therapists tomorrow. Maybe they won't be such a tool.