Thanks Sanity xxx

I'm not sure why it's back in full force (other than that forum about sleeping with someones wife). I thought that I had it all under control and I was totally back on my feet but little things are making me want to cry again. A song on the radio, seeing something that I know he would want when I am at the shops and just thinking about the betrayal generally.

I was past all of that - I didn't care that the questions wouldn't be answered.
Seems that it comes in waves. I want to know the truth - when they actually got together, did he 'cheat' on me or did they really only start seeing each other after we 'split'.
The time line doesn't make sense really... to get engaged 2 months after we split... seems like it must have been going on for the two months before hand (when he says he started to doubt that he still loved me).
I hate these thoughts and feelings - they are in control again and I'm crying at the drop of a hat!

I know that I will get past it again and as many times as I need too.

Thanks for all the support - hugs back at you all xxooxx