I am dealing with the same problem! These UNWANTED sexual thoughts are going to kill me - I just don't want to live any more! I know I don't want any of those things that pup up in my head, but there is always a doubt - "maybe you want to do that" and then I start thinking about that even more to prove myself I would never do something like that! After a while I can't tell any more what the truth is and I just want do die!!!! These are not thoughts that I enjoy thinking about, there is nothing I enjoy about them! But when you feel like you got aroused, you ask yourself if this is actually real?
Please help! Am I crazy?