The problem is that he bounces back and forth. One day he wants to come home and the next he wants to stay. He came home for a weekend in February and that seemed to help some. When I offer to go visit him, he says no because he wants to be with his friends on the weekends.

I feel like everything is such a mixed bag, which I guess goes along with bipolar. He called this morning asking for money, which of course I am sending him. He has not been able to hold down a job and go to school at the same time, which completely irks his sisters because they think he is just manipulative most of the time. He just sounds so down and I never seem to know what to say. Afraid to say the wrong thing or not say the right thing, I am always "walking on eggshells". He has an appt. this afternoon with the nurse practitioner. He refuses to talk to a counselor or therapist in the town where he goes to school. It is a very christian town and a christian university. He used to go to church and would pray. We went on mission trips together with our church, but now he says he does not believe in God. But I just keep praying!