(((((bama))))) I honestly can't imagine what you must be going through right now. I know what a big deal 2 hits, 2 beers, 2 of anything means to us. It means you come back as a newcomer and start over. It does not mean that you have to go back to using. I see that you did everything right, aside from going to that place with your sister. First, you didn't get high. You didn't let it get to that point where you might say screw it and not come back. And you came here and ratted yourself out! You put on a brave face and asked us for help. You didn't sit and hide and pretend you were still clean and sober. You changed your sobriety date. You were honest with us, yourself, and your higher power. As far as your sister goes, is she supportive of you getting clean? Can she not do anything around you, not have it around you? This topic came up in a meeting last night. This girl found her dad's coke stash. Everyone was telling her to move, get out of the situation. Your sobriety is more important then your sister. Especially more important then her using. If it means you can't see her until she quits, so be it. And if she never quits, she'll never see you. My advice above all would be to go to a meeting, preferably your homegroup, and tell on yourself. Get their support and wisdom. Be prepared for some harsh remarks. But go get your 24 hour chip. And think about what might have led to this. Where might you have been a little lax? What might have caused this? Because this is now all a part of your story. This will be something you will tell a newcomer, or someone who is thinking about relapsing. So analyze the situation and find your part in the night. Learn from the mistake, move on, start putting some 24 hours together again, and start forgiving yourself!!! You never have to use again, not even 2 hits, ever, if you don't want to. Keep remembering that, and keep coming back!

~Rayna