I was just thinking about Lithium levels and remembering that my p-doc didn't tell me my levels but told me that they were low. She didn't even show me the blood work. She sort of half pulled a paper out of a drawer and assured me that it was fine.

Do you think she is just having me take a placebo and doesn't believe that I have bipolar, that I am a faker?

She keeps commenting on how I am on baby doses, and that she is surprised, or pretends to be surprised when I have a side effect because the doses are so small. She asks me if I have been online looking up meds and driving myself into a "frenzy" (her word)

I don't trust her.

Do you think she might be getting ready to expose me as a faker, and when I go to a new p-doc, he/she won't believe me either?

Do you think she is trying to prove that I have another disorder altogether? Something that would make me fake diseases for sympathy? What is that called, Munchausens, or something?

She keeps talking about how I don't present with a classic "bipolar presentation" but has written a code that translates to "bipolar 1, last episode depressed, severe with psychotic features" on my lab slip.

Could her erratic behavior and talking through shark toys and quoting conversations we never had be her way of trying to make me crazy, to question what is real? Doesn't this kind of thing only happen in horror movies?