I know for myself anyway. it took me MANY tries before I was able to stay clean and sober for any amount of time. The thing you need to remember is no one can take that clean time away from you. Something was just not working right and now you might have to take a different approach at it to make it work. NEVER given up because you have made a mistake, NEVER. We are alcoholics/addics and that is what we know best to do. This is changing our whole lifestyle and that takes time and work and we may not get it all at once. Remember what you have learned through this time and use it to build yourself up this time and have a new begining. You are not the first to have failed the first, second, or third time. I think it took me about 6 times before it really started sinking in. Shows how much of a hard headed person and hard willed person I am. But you can d9o it I know. Trust in yourself and believe you can do it, just for today.

Allan