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Originally Posted by Hippie
((((feary)))) It sounds like the custody of your children has you just going inside-out. I'm not a lwayer but wonder what appeal options you may have. Can you ask your lawyer for help?
Are you getting sleep? When I worry I don't sleep well and it makes me feel worse so am wondering if this could be happening to you.
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Originally Posted by whimsical
Hi Feary,
I don't know you or your situation, but I do know how it feels to be terrified of growing old and dying. It consumes every moment of every day, so to live "in the moment" really "S**ks!! It seems like there is no way out of the viscious cycle. For me it comes in waves. The anxiety gets so bad then ebbs away leaving me exausted. I try to rest, and it comes back. Sometimes I go through this cycle four to five times a day! Medicine doesn't help. The only thing that has helped me is a book that a dear friend gave me. "Feeling Good" by David Burns helps me calm down by just reading the section on anxiety and panic attacks. I can't change my circumstances, or the way I feel, but I can read the comforting words and they help. Also, I hope that by coming here and reading posts like yours and others, I'll feel better. I appreciate it that you are willing to write about your experience so I can feel less alone.
Please take care of yourself.
Whimsical
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The mornings are the worst for me. I wake up into a nightmare which is my life of uncertainty. insecurity and shattering loneliness, no hope just fear and sadness. I wake up feeling as if I am waking up as myself older and how awful I will feel then.
I feel terrified about the day ahead no matter what I have planned. Like today, I have to right now clean the entire house for a showing from 1-2 before my kids are come back to me at 11. And then I have to go to my therapist at 12:30 and then take my son to a playdate at 2:00 and then I have no idea what to do after that.
And I feel so anxious being in the house at all maybe because it is filled with memories? I actually feel overwhelmed by the thought of looking after my own kids now whereas before I used to do everything effortlessly. It fills me with anxiety to know that i have to take care of them. Not that I do not want to but I feel incompetent now and what if I mess up.
I have no direction no consistency no routine. I worry constantly about how I will give them a good life or teach them everything when I am so afraid.
I have no motivation to clean the house-it is too overwhelming.
I just wish that I could stop fearing aging and dying. It would help so much.
I wish I could get some sort of hope. Therapy and meds are just not helping. I am staying very busy and that doesn't help. I just feel my life is over.
Living in the moment is IMPOSSIBLE with two kids because you HAVE to think about and plan what you are going to do with them.
God save me for my children that's all, please.
