I know how you feel, my psychaiatrist doesn't listen to me either.. I feel terrible today, and I am getting so very sick of this "life" of mine. All the things I used to get joy from, appreciate, love, everything means nothing anymore. I'm lost, and getting deeper, my roller coaster barely goes up, its like the drop of the superman, straight down, and it just keeps going down and down and down.

I don't know what to do anymore.. I hate being around people, the cold isolation and solidarity of my room, and being alone is old. The crazy thing is.. the lonliness is growing on me, its becoming me, its engulfing me in this black hole. I can't even keep myself from lashing out at the ones who "care". They say they say they care.. but they don't.. they don't listen.. they don't take the time to care.. so I don't see the point in explaining.

I don't know why it has to be like this, but your not alone, far from it. And I only said all that to let you know.