hey :-) wow I cant believe I am reading this, I too suffer from BP and I went through exactly what wor are right now. I felt like nobody believed me and at times questioned myself telling myself to get real and that i was just a drama queen. I was then told that I was suffering from paranoia and I think you may be too. have you tried talking to her about it? Hey, to me, I feel and hear what you are saying. Life is no joy ride with bp but it certainly keeps you no your toes! You apologised for posting again' you dont need to feel or be sorry for that thats something else I do is apologise for everything! i always feel like a burden and that i go on too much. When in fact i am not and i dont insecurity and low self esteem is to blame for this. Hope your ok just wanted you to know you are not alone and i recognise what you are saying. Dont be so hard on yourself