Thanks Amanda,

"jumped in with two LEFT feet", you didn't know did you? Ha Ha Ha



I am proud of myself. But I'll take all the encouragement I can find. The greatest thing is I can actually manufacture some of (a lot of) my own motivation. Maybe that's like some people say of addicts, "you have to hit bottom" before you take action.

I really want to be and feel and look healthy. And have more energy and fit into nicer cloths and not have diabetes, and not let my kidney disease progress any further and love life and choice to be happy about who and what I am, not what I want to be. I'm really loving myself where I am right now!

Often I have people say, but you look good, you aren't overweight. You look good to me.

Or there is one lady who is in the nutrition class with me who said to me more than once:

"My therapist told me--- You have to think that you are older now and that you will never have the body you had when you were ____age."

Well, I know what my age is and that it will not be as it once was but I know I can and will be in a healthier state of 'body fat' after I have gained some muscle and increased my cardio and respiration rate to have better engery....etc. Besides, like my little granddaughter said once, "You aren't the boss of me"....and that female isn't the boss of me either.....ha so there.....

She is the sort of people I avoid (have decided to not take seriously) as much as I can because they will de-motivate me if I let them. Besides, like my little granddaughter said once, "You aren't the boss of me"....and that female isn't the boss of me either.....ha so there.....My body may be 62 but my mind doesn't have to think "old". not anymore.

Well, the ones who are truley my friend who may say something similar, aren't trying to sabbotoge me, or they aren't trying to make themselves feel better by trying to dis-encourage me.

I can now tell the difference between such people and their underlying statements. In the end, I'm the one I have to live with, so I don't need to do people pleasing so much as I used to.

Besides, I really haven't like her much from the first meeting! Not I guess my gut instincts about her were right on. One more sign I'm going to reach a good health status. Yeah, you go Crazy Chick (that's me) As in chicken, I eat a lot of chicken these days!