hey there I think you need some real big

I also have some idea of how you're feeling. Man, isnt it soul desroying? You just think to yourself WHY SHOULD I EVEN BOTHER ONLY FOR ME TO END UP HERE AGAIN AND AGAIN AGAIN. You feel isoloated and lonely but its not true. We understand and know the pain you speak of.

Yes I also ask myself this when on a downward spiral and it is a dark dark place to be BUT....... the reason I go on is because life is worth living and everyday brings new possibilities.... you just cant see that right now but I know there is a place inside you that knows life can be good. Ride the storm.... speak to your doc..... speak to anyone but dont suffer in silence.... or by yourself.

I find wiriting all this stuff down helps... even if it sounds crazy... write write write away.... let it all out..... and remember you will come out of this.. yo have b4 and will again

here for you... I hear you