Whoa! I just said those same words recently, and it is NOT a good place to be, not in your best interest.

I'm trying to think about the good feelings I had with that "hope" and how it carried me for that short period of time. I'm also trying to take focus off the disappointment. That's life.

It's very easy to fall into distortive thinking if we don't counter that negative thought of "I know better ... having hope never works." See what I mean? Of course those are false statements. You and I can always hope, and there is no "knowing better" than to have hope for any given situation. Hope is a good thing, and it will get us through until the next scenario again.

I'm glad you didn't take the other apartment, and I hope that the next one is just perfect for you! Focus on getting ready and accumulating what you will need when you do have your own place. Put back a few dollars now and then, so you will be able to buy something new that pleases you too!