Hello, Hippie. The threshold question is whether you like you? Perhaps you might want to think a bit about that. If you do not like yourself, how does that affect how others view you?

You may choose your values. You choose what must be in your life to make it meaningful. Those are your choices. Do not allow others to define you.

Now go through these distortions again. http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/15-...e-distortions/

Be brutally honest. Do the negatives you perceive about yourself withstand an honest challenge?

What occurs that has you going from calm, to anxious to paranoid? A likely candidate is negative chatter. Bannish negative chatter. It is so destructive and such an impediment to a better life.

Love yourself. Be well.