Thanks for the support. For once I felt like my life was moving forward, but what do I know. I finally take down my walls, and open myself up to vulnerability and this. Yes I feel like a Yo-Yo and unfortunately there is no medication for this. My therapist commented that I had made a huge step forward, and now I ask why do I bother. My emotions are being toyed with and I am feeling even more alone now than before. At least before I could take comfort in the fact everything seemed to be wrong, now I just don't know.

Thing is I understand she needs time... I always have, and I made it clear that I wanted to move slowly. Then I am literally pulled in and then pushed away while still being held onto. Oh well I have feelings for her so it is to late to avoid the hurt.