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Apr 09, 2010, 10:45 PM
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Member Since: Oct 2009
Location: getting use to my own skin again
Posts: 1,797
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Thank you both DPS and Hunny,
We are still on the inner roller coaster. Even though we known most of what this alter shared it is like going through it all over again. Even though we thought we had moun the past this alter had kept a seperate batch of feeling of what we had gone through not just the past few years but from early child hood to.. But the main feeling was that we tried all these times and no matter what we did we could not prove that we remember fact when not ingured. To say that we felt like falures would be puting it mildly. This time it was like a life reviuw. You know your life flashing before your eyes. Feeling all the pain all over again. It was hard on us all. But this time it was easer even with our caotitic memiors for the simple fact this time we could come here even with our deleted post helped us not to feel so alone. And no afense to PC but even the deletion did not bother us for the simple fact that the pain that those alters dumped alowed us to be able to go to a church that we thought that we would be hurt from some members. It is werid that when you come to a point in your life that few accept you that you are even willing to go to the few places that even just a few will accept you. The hows and whys of the universe at times we do not understand. But now that we do not feel so alone we are able to spend time with those that we are starting to trust again and just be able to tell those that have hurt us to leave us alone. But as most of you are aware of that goes with whos out and who is pushing our button. LOL life is never boring is it?
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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