Hi Candy

I don't know how you do it but I am coming from a similar angle so I do understand what you are saying.

Are there other aspects of you that you do not see as totally evil and deserving of this pain? For example, are there things you enjoy doing, people you like being with? What would your "best friend" say about you? What would you say aobut someone else if they were in your situation? Those are things I have tried with some (limited) success to change my opinion of myself. But I have to say I find it hard and it is only when I am in a certain position, coming out of depressive incidents, that I can do it.

Take care of you.

C