(((((Hippie))))) I struggle so much with distortions too. It's so hard to separate my reflex reaction which is so frequently distorted with reality and I second guess myself constantly. Being aware that I do it is helpful, but painful. It's a ton of work and I find myself obsessing about distortion/reality. I had a therapist 10 years ago who really helped me with this, but now I'm trying to do it on my own (out of necessity - so wish I had a T) Anyway, I just wanted to say, I'm there with you and I will always listen. It's a lot easier to see that distortion in others thinking. PM me anytime and be good to yourself. I think you are an awesome person!