It basically started when I was about five years old when I was at home with my sister and we had been kissing when we shouldn't have been and then I felt, guilty about it and wanted to punish myself. Well this carried on all through my childhood and up to high school even so the pressure was there.

Then I had drug issues in high school and that kind of opened my doorway to new and possible ways of getting the pressures out of my system which I did.