((((((((lexicon)))))))))

only time, healing and therapy is going to enable you to move past this. i'm sorry for the pain. it is intense, i know.

i'm sure you have ptsd over this period of time in your live. along with ptsd come various forms of dissociation, which it sounds like you were doing. dissociation doesn't necessarily mean DID, however. DID can only be created by the very young child's mind.

stick close to your t right now and those that you can trust.

be safe,

kd