I wish I could get rid of the rush of feeling that seeps through my entire body when I say anything. Even when I make little mistakes that everyone else makes, and I know in my mind that its not a big deal, I still feel stupid. Its a rush of emotion (adrenaline, epinephrene, i have no idea) to my chest, face and neck. I thank god for darker skin or I'm sure I would be one who would blush visably all the time. I hate it, I even feel this way when I'm with my family, whom I feel the most comfortable with usually. I am working on depression in therapy, but I don't think I will feel better until I can get this rush of feeling to disappear.