I'm sooo tired of being alone and lonely all the time. I have a huge issue with social anxiety and I also suffer from depression and no self esteem. I have no friends to talk to and I've been pretty much isolated for the last 4 years (other than going to work). I have the worst memory ever so I feel I have nothing to talk about. I am in therapy and have been for a year. I know what I need to do but I just feel so paralyzed to do anything about it. I've also had some trust issues in the past with my so-called best friends which doesn't help matters any. The only physical contact I get is maybe 2 or 3 hugs a year when my adult daughter comes to visit. I usually don't have any money to go out and do anything either. I feel like I am just existing in this world and not living. Will it ever get better or easier??