Belle I can relate ...I have been expierencing suddenly those haunting thoughts after a little over 4 years you know my situation you have written on my posts ..why now her "Lisa"sleeping in our bed with him...cooking him meals in our pots and pans,taking care of him after his recent and sudden cardiac stent surgery,him being with her and vice versa physically doing all the intimate things we did together ...He is still my HUSBAND TOO DAMN IT ...I am Finally getting sooo mad now at her wondering doesn't she have anhy morals,conscious,whatever....never mind him....can't she find her own man,available man...tewll him go try and work things out with your wife or divorce her I am taking care of your ***...she's keeping our house,dog,as I wrote before all the benefits of being his wife except the paper and insurance...I have been insomniac over a week now...seems it hit me more after his close call with death ...maybe subconsciously or otherwise I feel like I could have lost my second chance with him if he died...I almost feel like confronting him and saying HEY you know deep down you still care about me get rid of her NOW....

Sorry All Maybe I am ranting Now all I have been doing is crying,been confused,anxiety,stressed every emotion except happy...