I'm having a very hard time today - feeling triggered from another thread. In a way I envy you and other women, who no longer have their men. I want my husband to leave and go to his 'other wife'. I'm totally willing to let him visit the girls and be very civil, but he won't go. I can't tell you how awkward, surreal it is, to say good morning and sit down at the occasional dinner and just make petty conversation. I feel so indifferent and barely tolerant of his presence. I fantasize winning the lottery and buying my own house and finally having peace. I can't move on as long as he's living here. I have to stop now because I can't see the keyboard through the tears.