I know how you feel.. I have been isolated to my bedroom for the last 21 years.. I have only two friends who I met on another forum.. They live thousands of miles away so I doubt we will ever meet in person..I've been in therapy for five years.. When my therapist is talking to me my mind drifts and she will catch me and ask what I thought about that..I am so socially crippled that I have a hard time just replying to posts..