{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}
You have survived hun. It may not feel like it to you because of the state of mind you are in right now but believe me when I tell you that you have survived. It is the coping with what happened to you is the struggle.
We all have coping mechanisms when something traumatic happens to us....some act out and some keep it in.....myself I kept in what happened to me as well. I was raped too. I was also in an abusive marriage. I still have days that I will look at my bf and think...why is he so good to me? What have I done to deserve someone treating me so well?
I know that I do deserve it....everyone does hun....you included

. It is just those knocks to our self esteem that we think we don't. That is where the coping skills come in....therapy, meds, treatment of some kind that works for each of us. Above all - honesty with yourself and others is the best treatment......that is surviving.

Heather
"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
~~author unknown