((((((((((googley))))))))))))

ugh, it's SO HARD to not believe the lies that we were told about ourselves. When I tell T the things I believe about myself, T tells me I am believing a lie, a lie I was told so many times that it feels like the truth. It's so hard to wrap my mind around that...and even if I believe him intellectually, it's so hard to really BELIEVE it in my heart.

You are not a bad person, googley. Like T tells me, how you feel is NOT who you are. It's not. For real. You are a good person who is absolutely deserving of love and caring.

I think printing your post and bringing it to T is such a good and brave idea. It will help her know where you are, and the more she knows about where you are, the better she can help you heal.

Lots and lots of to you.