(((googley))) T is reacting from a real place inside her. She has the honor of knowing all of you. She hears the your of your past, but she experiences the you of your present. She can't react as someone else because she is a separate person, with her own thoughts and feelings.

But.. that can be difficult to deal with because it is not what we expect. It is not familiar. So the reaction we feel is also not predictable or familiar. It is different, it feels different and can feel confusing and threatening/frightening.

You and T would have so much to talk about if you were to take your post to therapy with you. Your post is so open and honest and real.

I hope you feel better.