I am so frustrated right now. It seems like I have been crying for 3 days straight now. My eyes are swollen and I have a headache from you know where. I am sick of people being so fake about their care and concern. I just want to shake them and say, "It's ok if you don't care. Just don't pretend to because it really hurts me when you do!" I am tired of other people not respecting my boundaries. I don't care how much you think I am hiding something from you. It doesn't give you license to go rummaging through my stuff looking for evidence that I am mentally ill. I already know that. I am sick of being called a liar. It seems like the only people who believe me are my forum family here (all of you who are reading this post and who support me) and my counselor. I am sick of trying to keep up the "life is great!" facade. I just want to scream that my life sucks right now and I wish people would either just leave me alone or quit telling me to "snap out of it". If people really did care, they would listen to me and what I have to say without passing judgement and without trying to control me. If my door is shut, it is for a reason. That does not mean just open it and come in whenever you feel like it. I really am trying my best and I don't know how else to do things. Everything that I am supposed to be doing, I am doing. I don't know that these medications are helping but I still take them. I am so frustrated right now and again I am crying. I don't post on the forum too often, Faith and Krista post a lot though and sometimes Mason. I just needed to get that out. Thank you for listening.

Cris