I am angoraphobic and bipolar. I just replied to a message in anxiety about this but I wanted to post this because it is really bothering me. I hope I am not over doing it...
Anyways, my hubsnad and I had some work to do in New Orleans this past week. His dad (whom I work for) decided it would be a good idea to go the French Quarter Fest since my husband and I would be down there anyways. I balked at this idea obviously because of all the people that would be there. I begged my husband to let me stay home with the kids while he went and took someone else to work with him. He wouldnt have it. He wanted us to have a second honeymoon. Anyways, I made it through the weekend end without a panic attack just high anxiety and throwing up daily. Then my father-in-law mentions I should be crured of my angoraphobia by attending the festival!!!! It really was a nightmare. Then on the way back (my fath-in-law is a chiro and m.d. and thinks he knows EVERYTHING about EVERYTHING) he told me that really i shouldnt be taking meds because my life is stable now and im not on drugs!! i told him every time i have gotten off my meds i have ended up in jail and he told me my going to jail had nothing to do with bipolar. i know it does because when im manic i make impulse decisions and dont think things through but arguing with him is impossible because im just a woman that didnt go to college even with inferior genes im sure so i just shut up. the worst part is i work for him... is he right? could i get off the meds and be ok because my life is stable now? and is the anxiety really all in my head? i really would love it if he were right because if there was a magic way for me to be cured wouldnt that be awesome! these pills im on have made me huge and a zombie so i would like nothing other than to get off of them...