better...thx Byzantine...I've got a new T and she seems very nice and she could be my sister...lol...the T I had will be a fine therapist but I need someone more my age to understand how it was back when I was a kid...there were no rights for children...there was no place to turn back then and I guess I feel like I was a throw away child...IE: I ran away because I had seen others do that and they found help...I ran away a few times and I was always brought back and it was worse then...I can remember my father laughing with the police officers about me and the last thing the cop said to me was...STOP RUNNING...IT WON'T MAKE LIFE ANY EASIER...I could see the hatred in my dad's eyes as he closed the door behind them...I tried to run but he caught me and proceded to beat the crap out of me...I will have to end here because I can feel myself starting to panic...thanks everyone for the support...