I still have times where i feel pretty crappy. All i can tell you is that you have to have that inner strength because otherwise people will continue to be able to control your self esteem and emotions. You gotta be strong for yourself..nobody else in the world has lived your life and been what you been through. You are this only you in this world and you need to show it to everybody, better yet shove it in their faces....who cares what anybody else thinks?