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Hunny · Apr 12, 2010, 06:57 PM

I too found the puzzle pieces fitting together for more than just the trauma, KP. The other combined memories came to be my/our own. I found some/many connections that I did not have to go over with my therapist, until much later, if at all. The life that was mine started to become one life instead of many, in terms of incidents. I journaled almost everything and made the connectosr for my own use and now there is this feeling of just belonging, internally. Not that I have arrived at full integration but there is definately a difference. There is learning how to cope with the externals of life as one mind and body and heart and at times that splays me out again and I have to deal with life on life's terms. It's more than I can manage at times but that is usually when I have to ask for outside help.

Thanks again for you KP. Hope all the developments with the baby are going well.

Love,
Hunny

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Originally Posted by krazy_phoenix

All of you are so so amazing. Thank you for your support and feedback. DPS, yes you were on the right track - thank you. Justdontknow, hunny, anderson, lillyleaf, loveregardless, thank you for your comments and time responding.

The best thing for me that has happened now that me (Jenni), Ronnie and Riley are on co-operative terms is the sharing of our memories. Me and Riley still are a bit on the defensive - its by no means smooth sailing - but the main thing is we are aiming for a common goal and recognise that it we need some give and take to get there. With the sharing of memories, there has been some bits of life that now actually make sense!!! Like sitting in class in secondary school 20 years ago and a small mundane but interesting (to me) incident took place. I only had half the memory of it and it was just one of those things that always intrigued me. Riley had the other half of that memory! Amazing!!! Now I know what happened!

I know that T's for DID'ers tend to get caught up in the past horrors, but what we're having the most success with, the part that the T's don't get, is figuring out the rest of the past of 'our' life. It means so much to us to look at a photo of us and husband, and now we know where that photo was taken and who was out front at the time. As there are only the three of us in our little pact, there is of course much much still missing, but the little bits we have are so worthwhile.

Thank you all again, hugs to you all, and prayers for all your journeys.

kp