im kind of hard on myself by nature lol. i think that i had this whole fantasy realm since i was a kid i just never realized it. i remember daydreaming alot as a young kid. i probably used that as an outlet...i just never understood it. i dont really have that much of a social life and my imagination has always been wild. this has been something like a crutch and i havent even realized it. how do you live a social life when you have next to no friends?