Firstly, I am sad for your losses - that is a huge weight of grief to deal with in a short period. Can I suggest that the rest of the family need to deal with their own issues, and this especially considering those terrible manifestations of stress and mental illness that landed you in hospital, that this is now YOUR TIME to look after yourself and maybe apply boundaries with family members. You may not be popular doing this, but if you are to move forward with both your physical and mental health, you need some freedom from the full-on family dynamics right now.