I used to wake up every morning with the biggest sense of impending doom pressing down onto me. When I woke up I was scared of everything and nothing all at the same time. I hyperventilated and began the day crying before even getting out of bed. Nothing has helped except for medications. I didn't want to rely on them either but it seems that I have no choice, as nothing else has helped me in that regards. You aren't alone and I'm sorry you feel that way. It really makes the day harder to get through to start out on such a bad note.