Do you have anyone IRL you can chat to?

This seems like a very stressful situation, but it sounds like it will be a transient one. When it's over, give yourself a massive reward, you'll have earnt it. Financial pressures are extremely taxing. I had one a month ago and I just wanted to die. But what would the point of that be if the problem was going to be short lived anyway? All I had to do was hang in there.